Can't I Just Stay in School Forever?

The moment I thought I had been waiting for is almost here, in fact it is only a short 36 days away. College Graduation is the topic and compared to zombies, ghosts, snakes, and spiders... it's the scariest thing in the world. My college career has felt like an impossible mountain I have been climbing for 4 crazy years and then graduation feels like I am personally getting thrown off the top of it by our lovely University President. This is something I have been working towards for 4 years, why is it so terrifying? Isn't the entire reason of going to college is graduating from it? This might be news to some.. but it really is the only reason you're in school. I studied and studied but I feel as unprepared as someone on 16 and Pregnant, all I can do now is watch my belly grow and realize my glory days are behind me.

I hope my mom never reads this because she was friggin right. She told me to cherish every moment, go out every night, and make all the memories I could because that 4 years of irresponsibility ends. Luckily I somewhat listened and have some great stories to show for it. Not any stories I can disclose with a future employer, but if we ever meet, feel free to ask.


My baby sister (left) is graduating too! But from High School

I know this makes me seem like a little kid lacking confidence so here. I have been working my tail off for 4 years. While getting my degree I've had a real job, I cheered for a little bit, and duh, of course I'm in a sorority. I am extremely well qualified for whatever life throws at me next.. ON PAPER. But in the real, emotional sense of growing up I am scared! It's not easy entering the big world, in fact it's crazy hard!

I'm not sure how all you post-grad people survived this. However, I am sure that you all felt how I feel right now. The sense of panic, the obsession over job hunting, the over-preparation for interviews, and the disappointment you felt when you realized you might have to move back in with your parents. It's almost time for me to quit riding the fence of being a sorority girl and a full time employee. The countdown to the President (not of USA) shoving me off that mountain has begun and unfortunately... there is no stopping that clock.

Oh & job searching absolutely sucks....... but I have an interview next week so keep your fingers crossed!



Til next time y'all <3